I´m tired, stressed, and sometimes a sensation of anxiety, don't let me breathe, locked
The Wishes of Heart.
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Few months after I trying to get calm, although feel undone, questions around my mind, whether I lost my last chance or I have wasted my time. However, I do not know or what can I do. Something rare, and confused, just I want to find some peace in my mind, but I can´t hide my truth, was bad experience get a divorce, but occasionally necessary make a deal when we don´t find solution, and doesn't works couple, however if everyone needs another way, better looking for other opportunity to keep on or make a new relationship. Anyway I have to do one step forward, and begin again after a deeper lesson, also started to understand some things, therefore, looking for sense to live my life, and my sincere desire to be better person, was the most important thing to me. Considering this, my ego has broken, without wings to fly, but avid to start again. My first time bend on my knees, and ask for humility to me make feel a new sensation to living, and find one way to feel happiness. my weary mind, starting to feel so good, I am learning to feel better day by day, I am beginning to be self-sufficient, and persistent to search answers to find the word God as fact as fact I become conscious of God, I knew that God give us if we ask. The Bible is full of promises that God has for each of us. My goal is discover the promise that the Lord has intended for me. but I discover one lack on my life, I mean, I needed strongly faith, that big problem to I don’t know how I can resolve, because I don´t know what is faith, and how I can get faith in my life, one important reason to get one spiritual style to life. Many times I claimed to see Jesus Christ, or see a signal from him, also a ray of light shining my room, my thirst for him, preceded to change my heart, I thought, I not sure how is working that, although I keep encourage, and waiting for him. I have had to accepting helping by Christian man, but he had abandoned me, and refused to teach me the God's Word, because I didn't want follow his recommendation, I couldn't let to heard my favorite music, he never know how much hurt me, that ugly attitude. Is really hard cross the line, to spiritual life world, however, was most strong the wishes of my heart. Practicing, believe every day, in a sane way to obtain good results, pursuit to get faith was my goal and trust in my Heavenly Father. The loneliness was my first dare, and learn to be persistent, to be capable about enjoying the simple things. For instance my blue jeans make me feel happy, because is my favorite, soon I see changes in my thoughts, my point of view through Heavenly Father let me do a positive things, try to be obedient, of course God knows everything about us. Our sweet Lord knows what is better for our lives, the especial moments planed by Him, comes to help us. I remember that I asked a lot wishes every time, but God didn’t heard me, and tire to ask to Heavenly Father many things, my wishes disappear, and ask less than before, I thought that He denied me all, I felt disappointed, for pretending a lot, so I got a conclusion. “ I'm not ready to receive blessings from Him”. maybe was not my time, but I keep on trust firmly in God, unless I didn’t have an accomplished wishes, sadly I see that my faith was a weak, I intend again to pursue the faith by the time I forget almost all my petitions, but I receive some revelations on my dreams, my older daughter born, and two year after my son born in the same month and one day before my birthday, only I knows that means God never forget. He gives the real happiness and sense our life in the right moment.- Escrito por: Rafa Gaska
